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Listen to Suicide

You are the pain in my throat
When you are near me I choke
Everything round me screaming ‘Stop don’t do it!’
You are the hurt in my heart
Every time I try to start
Everything round me screaming ‘Stop or lose it!’

I try to run but I don’t
I try to hide on my own
I really do try to die but I’m scared
To ruin your life and mine
Hit two birds in one straight line
I really do try to die somewhere.

You have your hands tipped with blades
When you hold me I’m afraid
Of being cut but then I guess I’d be free
If you weren’t human I’d tense
Cause then all this would make sense
I’d know what everything was telling me!

I try to win but I lose
There’s no real end I can choose
To be let free without suicide

So now I’m just gonna do
What I can try to get through
It’s now the start of a life long ride

You are the cramp in my side
You jab at me like a knife
Everything round me screaming ‘Stop don’t do it!’
My mind’s made up with a choice
For once I’m using my voice
Everything round me praising ‘Please keep with it!’

I try to win but I lose
There’s no real end I can choose
To be let free without suicide

So now I’m just gonna do
What I can try to get through
It’s now the start of a life long ride

I try to run but I don’t
I try to hide on my own
I really do try to die but I’m scared
To ruin your life and mine
Hit two birds in one straight line
I really do try to die somewhere.